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I don't write journals very often - can you tell? I just turned 19 on Friday.

I hope to be getting more posted on this dA. I really want to do more meaningful work and such, but I'm not exactly sure where to start. Anyone got ideas for me? :P
  • Drinking: Pepsi
Even if it turns out that it is not what my problems are, I want everyone to do me the biggest favor for me, themselves (if you're a female), and their daughters.

Endometriosis is found in 20% of women. A basic, classical sign is severe menstrual cramps that are actually much harsher than normal cramps. For me, this meant that my lower abdomen felt like it was filled with dull knives, my legs were weak and sore, and my back was all but useless (and is even when not cycling).

Endometriosis is the lining of a uterus growing on everything except the inside of the uterus where it belongs - because of this, it cannot be shed. Which leads to horrific, fetal position-inducing pain. Lots of endo patients also get a fair share of cysts.

I want everyone I know that is female to research this. If you're a man, I highly encourage you research it too.

WHY? Because endometriosis can cause infertility on top of all that pain. Not to mention that sex for most is next to impossible - like it is for me.

Please, please, please research at least a little. Hell, make an essay for school if it's the only way to get yourself to understand.

You can say, "At least it isn't cancer." At least cancer has been cured before and has safer treatments. All endo has is temporary relief, dangerous surgeries, and one type of medication that was recently put out to "mask" the endo symptoms.

Thank you for reading this horribly written journal.
  • Drinking: Pepsi
Was very unfortunately tagged by:

1. You must post these rules.
2. Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post, and create ten new questions for the people you tag to answer.
3. You have to choose 10 people to tag and post their icons on your journal.
4. Go to their pages and tell them you have tagged her/him.
5. No tag backs
6. No stuff in the tagging section about "you are tagged if you're reading this." You legitimately have to tag 5 people or more.
7. After answering let your Tagger know you've answered their questions.

1. Who owns your soul? Devil and Saki

2. Who would win a fight? Damian or Me? Damian -  by a long shot. LOL.

3. I can haz hugs? Awe, yes. :D -hughughughugsnughug-

4. Think quick. If a blue duck crossed a road and joined a party with a yellow cow and ended up having babies...what color would their babies be? Green ponies!

5. If I were to be a pokemon. Which one do you think I would be? Pikachu?

6. Who owns my soul? I do, duh.

7. Ps3 or XBOX 360? You own a 360. I like 360 a lot, but my man-hoe wants to get a PS3 for the blue ray.

8. Bored with my questions yet? Why you gotta tag meh, hooker?

9. Did you know I have drank three Monster Energy Drinks in the last 8 hours? OYA? I smoked. >:D



Questions for You:

1. What's my favorite creature [real or fiction] above all else?
2. How many rats do I have?
3. What color undies are you wearing?
4. Does penis size matter?
5. Have you realized I have no life? If so, why are you taking part in this?
6. Pepsi or Coke?
7. Harry Potter or Twilight?
8. Do you know my middle name?
9. How many illegal drugs do you probably do? [This falls under the DEA standard, not state standard.]
10. Can you guess my boyfriend's name?


Tag! You're it.
LadyAsheh [idgaf either]

Okay, I have no one else to tag.
  • Watching: Looney Toons
  • Drinking: Pepsi
Dear ElementRider,

I don't really know how to tell you this, but I'm joining the Convent. I think I realized it When I quoted Forrest Gump At the mental hospital and I saw you sit on my father. I'm sure you're open enough to understand that Santa doesn't exist. I'm returning the toe ring, but keeping your collection of butterflies as a memory. You should also know that I love your sweet, sweet ass and Oprah.
Please don't hurt me.

  • Watching: Looney Toons
  • Drinking: Pepsi


Journal Entry: Fri Jun 3, 2011, 1:08 PM

bring it on!

Okay, so get ready for a sketchy overload! Also, been thinking about doing simple, cheap commissions... or rather, just letting you send me some money or give me points, and I'll sketch you up some random thing that flows out. If you want me to send you the picture itself, I suppose I can. :3


Also, I need a new premium. ._. If you're interested, I will send "Unknown Beast" to your house for a 3 month premium! :D

  • Watching: Looney Toons
  • Drinking: Pepsi

So much going on in life.

Journal Entry: Mon May 23, 2011, 4:06 PM

I feel so lost without you

Thursday evening, I helped my boyfriend move to Branson, Missouri. I came back home Saturday afternoon, and I've been depressed since we made the decision to leave. I miss him so much - I can't wait until he comes to see me. I hope I can visit him every weekend until I move in with him - we had been living together at my parent's house, but there's job opportunity in Branson.

I also lost my camera - joy. Now I can't entertain myself pointlessly while creating art at the same time. I guess I'll have to sketch up some stuff and try to upload it somehow. Oh, also, my freakin' premium is about to run out.

Someone, show some love and give me another upgrade.

  • Watching: My Super Ex-Girlfriend
  • Drinking: Pepsi

Obsessed with Horses Again

Journal Entry: Sun May 1, 2011, 9:24 AM

And I feel like it's been awhile..

I really do feel like it has been awhile since I've truly been able to hold up my horse obsession. Since I lost Princess, it's been a little difficult for me - I miss riding her, visiting her, and giving the fluffy thing treats. However, since I got this little yearling, I've felt so much better. Like I finally have what I really love back. April will be good for me in every way except one - she's gonna be a money sucker. I don't care.

I have a link to her journal in the upper left of this new journal skin. Entertain me by reading it - I like knowing someone might be out there understanding and enjoying it as much as me.

Darn this weather, and damn my car! It rained today, and yesterday was so pretty. I haven't seen here for what's going onto three days now. I know I can't get her to let me touch her yet, but this lost time won't help. My stupid car has to keep having broken parts on it. My papa isn't being supportive of me in any way, and the one thing he could stop being an ass about is me having a horse again. But no, he just wants me to stop spending gas money - I work for him! I know he has to pay for my car, but I'll have it all made up shortly anyway. Come on now, pay me asshole so I can actually call her mine forever.

I'm sorry for the lack of art lately. I haven't been feeling unnecessarily creative. I'll throw pretty pictures out of April when she cooperates.

  • Drinking: Root beer

Was Tagged (I keep getting tagged!)

Journal Entry: Fri Apr 8, 2011, 10:33 AM

Tagged by :iconladyasheh::iconramokrew:

You need to:
Tell 9 previously unpublished facts about your character.
Tag 8 another characters.
Put their names with avatars of their creators.
You can tag me back, until my characters are gone.

1. In love with Damian.
2. Over 1k years, never had children, and has only had intercourse once.
3. Bisexual, with little preference.
4. Was born into a rich family, but did not accept the "silver spoon" treatment.
5. Even in the modern world, she remains in old-style castles with no to little electricity. However, she always has a very nice classic muscle car or two.
6. Has a brother not even she knows about - her father had an affair.
7. Most of her eldest pack members are in fact her original family.
8. Fights like man.
9. Has a quiet obsession with sharp objects, and has a secret kinky side because of it. (Not even Damian knows.)

1. Was born into a litter of five, with one female. However, the female is his only "true" sibling.
2. Most think he's about six hundred sixty-six years of age. He is actually only five hundred eighty-nine.
3. He has no children, but has come close.
4. Is bisexual, but will only be a mate to a female.
5. He's tried to kill himself several times.
6. About 60% of the murders he has made are not a result of his father's persuasion.
7. He could care less if anyone died, the only exception is his twin, Enu. That's right Damian, he wouldn't shed a tear for you.
8. Lucifer is color blind!
9. He has raped on person, and regrets it completely - even though they've been dead for years.

1. Of German decent.
2. Gay as a rainbow! But pretends he's bisexual.
3. Fucks women for sport.
4. Once out of prison, he plans to jump right back into his cocaine, acid, and heroine habits.
5. His favorite drink is Russian vodka and Irish whiskey.
6. He usually keeps this a secret, but is a severe schizo. Thank god he takes his meds - for now.
7. His only major phobias? Knives and fire.
8. Has two little sisters that are twins.
9. Has a kid of his own. YES SIR HE DOES.

1. Hates his master, loves fighting him and being entered into battle. It's why he always comes back.
2. Had a mate and two children. Thanks to his amazing master, he is now down to just one pup.
3. While always holding sadistic intent, he gets piercings for masochistic reasons.
4. Has had one "wet dream" about Adonis.
5. Loves his brother, but will never show it.
6. Hopes to kill his father, and will refuse to take on the pack.
7. Can't handle his alcohol.
8. Has smoke marijuana a couple times, and has been forced onto meth one time by his owner.
9. Is torn between finding a new mother for his son, and not ever touching another female again.

:iconladyasheh: ~ Skaggy!
:iconramokrew: ~ Mortimer

I tag the following
:iconladyasheh: ~ Adonis
:iconramokrew: ~ Bronson
:iconsadistic-but-sweet: ~ Lianne
:iconsunsetkit: ~ Arcayne
:icongrifforik: ~ Danika
:icondoctorticktock: ~ The Doctor
:iconkrazdapple: ~ Feinhart
:iconvixiu: ~ Any

  • Eating: Chicken strips
  • Drinking: Pepsi

Livestreaming Rats

Journal Entry: Mon Apr 4, 2011, 11:51 AM
  • Listening to: Papa sing
  • Drinking: Pepsi

Blah, blah, blah.

Today, at 2 PM, I will be livestreaming with my two girls, Seven and Mary-Jane. Don't be late! It will run up to an hour, but it's not a definite thing. 30 minutes of rat fun at the very least!


Art, Art, Baby!

Journal Entry: Wed Dec 8, 2010, 6:42 AM
  • Listening to: Papa sing
  • Drinking: Pepsi

Blah, blah, blah.

I know, I have no life. -points at journal title- :| BUT HEY, Y'KNOW. I NEED HAPPY BORED TIME, TOO.

So after seeing some ass-kicking art this morning, I've decided to whip out my sketch book and see if I can draw up something pretty. Something I won't color until I can do so on my computer. Something that you can stare at for hours on end like me, because you're so proud of it you forget you have a life... -ahem-

My papa is singing in the shower right now. Naked. Just thought you might like that image.

I don't know what I'll draw. Maybe a dragon, or a monster, or maybe a new form for Lucifer. Eh, we'll see. I need new art for my fail gallery. Which, by the way, I might clean out. Does anyone see anything they won't miss at all?


Journal Entry: Wed Dec 1, 2010, 9:42 AM
  • Drinking: Pepsi

Blah, blah, blah.

For a few years now, I've had this one bay mare who had a spunky attitude despite her old age. She came to me with the name Princess, and today, leaves me.

I arrived at the ranch, not intending to stay. But something caught my eye. There was a brown, curly haired horse laying on the ground, bobbing it's head off the ground in a peculiar way. At first, I thought it might of been Babe, but as I watched, I realized the face markings were like that of my horse. I found it suspicious. I was beginning to drive away, but had second thoughts. I put my car in reverse, re-parked it, then ventured out toward the horse. It was my old girl – Princess – laying flat on her side in the neighboring pasture. The first thing I saw was how stiff she seemed, then I saw the blood. A huge laceration was on the right side of her chest. Quickly, I jumped out of the pasture I raced to the office to get Nancy.

For over an hour I sat with her once we rolled her out of the pasture. Her legs were all stiff, and she could barely sit up in lamb position. We fed her a little, but mostly it was just me and her alone. I petted her, talked to her, and watched as she bobbed her head around hopelessly. Eventually, the vet finally arrived. We rolled her back over to her uninjured side so he could better examine the wound, only to find the upper part of her hind leg was snapped in two.

Rest in peace, my sweet girl. You will so deeply missed.

Griffii tagged me.

Journal Entry: Fri Oct 15, 2010, 5:18 PM
  • Listening to: Juggalo Family - Dark Lotus
  • Reading: Fang
  • Watching: Nada
  • Playing: Solitare
  • Eating: Cake
  • Drinking: Pepsi

Blah, blah, blah.

Jacked from: :icongrifforik:

1).Pick one of your FCs/OCs
2).Fill in the questions/statements as if you were your FC/OC
3).Tag 3 people at the end of the quiz

OC: Demetri

1. What is your name?
Demetri Swinler Foxx

2. Any unique traits and powers you have?:
Sharp shootin' assassin who recently became a werewolf. Oh yes, I'm dangerous. (I also do some kick ass paint work.)

3. Are you engaged, have any lovers?
Not engaged, but I do have a boy.

4. What are your goals?
I.. I don't really know. Maybe to stop being such a murderous fiend?

5. Any Hobbies?
I love to paint Arcayne's walls.

6. Any friends?
Arcayne and Stephan, but Arcayne is more of a father and Stephan is the boy.

7. Do YOU like waffles!?!
They're good with butter and LOTS of syrup.

8. Any particular foes and/or enemies?
I can't even begin the list, it's so long.

9. What is your favorite place to be?
In position, hiding, my finger on the trigger...

10. What is your least favorite place to be?
In the open.

11. How old are you?

12. Any bad habits you may have?
I sometimes forget to either sleep or eat.

13. If you had a billion dollars, what would you do?
Psh, I have about that if not more in a secret account.

14. Eye color?

15. What are you wearing?
Black pants, usually a soft leather, and a black shirt with combat boots. Oh, and all the things necessary to survive under hand-to-hand combat (if you don't count my guns.)

16. What religion are you?
I don't fucking believe in religion.

17. What is you favorite food/drink.
Speghetti and pepsi.

18. What animal do you think your based off?
-shrug- I have always held cat-like reflexes.

19. Anyone you look up to?
Before, no. But now he is more of a dad than anything, and is truly my idol.

20. Gay, straight, or bisexual?

21. Got any fan girls/fan boys?
Hell if I know. Ahaha.

22. What color is your hair!
Black - like my heart.

23. If you could change the world, what would you change about it?
I'd be able to destroy a man just by looking at him.

24. Did you by chance kill anyone!?
It's my job to kill.

25. Have you hurt anyone before, physically/emotionally?
Yes. Especially that whore who tried to steal my man.

26. Any family members?
My mother and step-father. And Arcayne.

27. Where do you currently live?
I have no premenant residence.

28. Are you a virgin by chance?

29. Any fantasies you would like to share?
Torturing that fucker that called himself a dad.

30. Any disturbing thoughts?
All of my nightmares... oh god.

31. Congratulations, these are all the questions I could come up with at the moment, quiz is over!!
Fuck you, herpies-infested cock sucker. I hope you have fun with mouth cancer.

People whom I'm tagging:
Every dumbass who reads this. :)

Hope - There isn't much of it.

Journal Entry: Sat Sep 18, 2010, 11:54 PM
  • Listening to: Devil's Swing - Godsmack
  • Drinking: Pepsi

Blah, blah, blah.

About three mornings ago, my cousin Dakota was up and about at 5 AM with his buddies, riding in the back of a pick up. I guess he was supposedly reaching toward the cab for something. His foot slipped, and he landed directly on his face at speeds of 60 mph or so. Last I heard, he was barely hanging on. He's under an induced coma. I hope he makes it through this.

He was always pretty nice to me when he did come over. We didn't see each other much, but he was a good guy. If he pulls through, I wonder how things will change for him. As I've heard, he's pretty fucked up. I hope he pulls through. I really do.

I just really don't want to go to another funeral.

THEME: unalive

Advertising Some BUGS

Journal Entry: Mon Sep 13, 2010, 4:52 PM
  • Listening to: Take It Off - Kesha
  • Watching: TV
  • Eating: Pudding
  • Drinking: Chocolate Milk

Blah, blah, blah.

I finally found a damn good reason to have my other account.

THEME: jblood bugs

And here I update.

Journal Entry: Tue Aug 31, 2010, 4:40 PM
  • Listening to: Take It Off - Kesha
  • Watching: TV
  • Eating: Pudding
  • Drinking: Chocolate Milk

Blah, blah, blah.

So, I'm finding myself to be quite happy with Jessica. I'm sure what stopped me before was being kinda ill and very stressed. Not to say I'm not stressed now, see that I've already had drama with three people in a matter of two weeks. Eh. There's also a couple obstacles in our relationship. I think we've gotten over the James-thing, Dakota is a dramatic thing we both have to get over, and since they seem to be buddies again.. Huzzah. No more from that road, I hope. And now there's Josie. My supposed best friend for four years. I pretty much ended that today, telling her she's never done anything for me except exist, whereas I've done everything I really could for her.

I've decided I'm going to the pool this weekend so I can see Jessica outside of school. The movies was good, if you skip over the whole Gisele crap that was pulled. That bitch would not back off. o___O But we'll be in bathing suits, with exposed skin and water. -smirk-

No matter what though, Jessica always proves she likes me for me, and I have to say I really, really like her too. With help from everyone I care about, and my awesome mom, I think I'll be able to get out of this cloud of drama. Then I can really appreciate Jessi. :heart:

In other news, I've decided that I'm going to rename my random deviations section to whatever the theme of my journal is. ^_^ If you have pictures to contribute, let me know.

THEME: lesbian love

:thumb98063712: Lesbian Love by BrokenCatastrophe Love by SunRayBeamFreshAir Young Lesbian Romance by MadeUnderground:thumb57434291:

Fishie O'Conner

Journal Entry: Tue Aug 17, 2010, 9:51 PM
  • Listening to: Fuck You (Very Much)
  • Playing: Robot Unicorn Attack
  • Drinking: Orange Sunkist

Blah, blah, blah.

Today didn't start or finish off so smoothly. Things happened, but I'm glad it was now when things could be avoided, versus down the road only to end up with a lot of negativity. Anyway, Ray finally got back from basic training today. We didn't talk much (through texts, yay). I wasn't too thrilled about it, because I don't really feel like dealing with, "What happens next?"

To cheer myself up, I went to Walmart and bought a Betta fish. He's pale which a couple black spots on his back. He's so pretty, and easily excited. I decided to name him Fishie O'Conner, Fish being his call-name. I love him to bits already. If he's not dead by morning, I'll be thrilled. Lol. So, that's all. YES, I will admit being obsessed with my wonderful new fish.

P.S. Check out the deviations below. :D

Random deviations.

betta by grimgail Gearworld: Fish for Eve by ursulav:thumb93897151::thumb78688776::thumb78682992: Betta Imbellis by Phoenix-Cry

New Journal Skin and Stuff

Journal Entry: Mon Aug 2, 2010, 9:27 AM
  • Listening to: The Reason (Is You)
  • Playing: Robot Unicorn Attack
  • Drinking: Pepsi. Again.

Blah, blah, blah.

Alright, so a bit of an update. I decided to change this journal skin, since I never do. I wish I knew how to make my own, or had the money to buy a custom one. D;

Anyway, for the stuff. I guess my idea of the military is out. I'm more than likely just going to drop out half-way through this year and get my GED after I turn 18. Between now and then, I'll be hunting down a college that'll give me a B.A. in web designing. Hopefully I don't fuck this up.


So, yeah. Huzzah, yay, and throw a party. Merh.

Random deviations.

Got a Random Watch?

Journal Entry: Sat Jul 31, 2010, 10:09 PM

"I am whatever you say I am, if I wasn't, why would I say I am?" - Eminem ~ The Way I Am

Have you ever gotten a +fav or watch, glanced at the account, then realized, "This person hasn't submitted jack." That's probably because it's a 'bot', or a person using a script to gain high audience on dA in a matter of days. For full information, read here:…

I also feel this needs to be stopped. I always feel a little put off when I see that my watcher isn't really an active user. I got two bots today, which was shitty. Read ALL of that news article. The more people there are against it, the higher the chances are that it'll be made a forbidden activity on dA.

:thumb122543254::thumb120671563::thumb147813527: Use Your Turn Signals by alaska-is-a-husky Stamp - Not Feminine by foxlee

  • Listening to: Holiday - Green Day
  • Playing: Robot Unicorn Attack
  • Drinking: Crush

I was tagged.

Journal Entry: Fri Jul 2, 2010, 4:39 PM

"I am whatever you say I am, if I wasn't, why would I say I am?" - Eminem ~ The Way I Am

Tagged by :iconvixiu: dammit D< Oh well xD

• You must post these rules.
• Each tagged person must post 10 things about themselves on their journal.
• You have to choose and tag 10 people and post their icons on the same journal.
• Go to their pages and tell them you tagged them!
• No tagbacks.

1. I am a furry, in case you didn't know. I plan on hunting down a good suit maker and spending ass-loads of money so I can go to a FurCon someday.
2. I don't think I actually know ten facts about myself. So if I find all ten, BE SHOCKED.
3. I had my first car wreck EVER on Monday, June 21, 2010.
4. I don't get carsick in back seats when the windows are down. But I sure do when they're up.
5. I like most things kinky, leathery, and bondage. I don't care if that's more information than you wanted. Bite me. Please.
6. I've used the name Shuka Dunn for myself (including when playing pretend) since I was about six years old. That's eleven years, for those of you who suck harder at math than me.
7. I am a seventeen year-old about to be in 10th grade. I have never failed, I did not start school late.
8. My oldest character is a wolf known as Nuka.
9. I am not in a specific religion, I don't mind any religion, but I hate the fuckers who shove their religions on me. I also find it rather amusing Jews are nearly always targeted in religious wars and that Jehovah's Witnesses subject themselves to middle fingers.
10. I promise that the first Jehovah's Witness that walks up to my door will receive the following statement: Oh, yes! I've been waiting for you. Satan is my pit bull, and I keep him in my basement. He would love to meet you.

:iconladyasheh::iconramokrew::iconungesehensoldat::iconcaptaingaywad::iconsadistic-but-sweet::icongrifforik:And others...

I don't care what facts you like, or if you find them relevant. SUCK MY LEFT, cause my right is too good for you. ^_^

:thumb122543254::thumb120671563::thumb147813527: Use Your Turn Signals by alaska-is-a-husky Stamp - Not Feminine by foxlee

  • Drinking: Pepsi


Journal Entry: Fri May 28, 2010, 12:38 PM

"I am whatever you say I am, if I wasn't, why would I say I am?" - Eminem ~ The Way I Am

I have a lot of things going through my mind. None of which really makes sense and it seems to bug me the more I talk about it, so I'm definitely not dragging my shit onto dA. It'd be a waste of everyone's time.

I need ideas for drawings, too. And maybe more ideas on what kind of tablet I should get, since my current one has officially become crap. Maybe I'll get another Bamboo Fun. Who knows.

:thumb122543254::thumb120671563::thumb147813527: Use Your Turn Signals by alaska-is-a-husky Stamp - Not Feminine by foxlee

  • Listening to: Now Generation - Black Eyed Peas
  • Watching: CSI
  • Eating: Chips &amp; dip
  • Drinking: Pepsi